Do I take life too seriously?

I enjoy life, and I love doing and experiencing things that make my life seem better. For example, travelling, buying things, eating and making good food, meeting people, learning new things.

I hate it when things don't happen, or fail to occur in the way that I expected (unless what happens outclasses what I expected).

The thing that stresses me out most of all is work. I work with people who don't really care about what they do. Their lapsidasical approach frustrates me because I want the result from my project to be the best. (If you are reading this and wondering if I am talking about you, then it probably isn't you! Reason: The people who I am talking about are fully aware of my feelings toward them! Ask me in person if you want to be sure!)

But should I care? Should I take a step back and think to myself "Does it really matter?"? If I am living to work it should really matter, but I know that when it comes down to it I am working to live - that is, to make my life better for now and the future.

So, why do I lie awake at night running made up conversations through my head about things that I would want to say to these people? Why do I let it get me down? Why do I feel like everyone else gets recognition for the work they do, and I get left behind doing the same old?

To be honest, I want to make big changes in my life - job, where I live, hobbies, fashion, blah, blah - but there are certain things holding me back. Mostly financial, and I know these will be dealt with within the next 3 years.

Ahhh.. suddenly I feel happier thinking about a target - 2010 should be a good year!

I briefly saw Jo Cameron from The Apprentice series 2 (http://www.jocameron.co.uk/) this morning on TV and she said to write things down - and I feel far better and motivated after blogging this! I think she's great!